@nat_bucky_: ‼️vent‼️ so... it's been a year. a year since the moment i came home completely broken, empty, full of anger, guilt and self blaming. alone, without my best friend, my dearest doggo who was there with me since i was 6. i cried myself to sleep so many days and every time i closed my eyes i saw the innocent soul bleeding and dying in front of me when the dogs attacked her and ripped her. and i was completely freezed and i couldn't do anything, just to hold her and prayed to God even tho I knew there is no chance she could make this, even tho she was the strongest and best doggie ever. i remember sitting at the vet, crying so hard that i couldn't breathe, staring at my hands and almost seeing her blood - and hearing all the things in my head. it's my fault. i shouldn't got distracted. i should took her and ran away. another voice in my head said it wasn't my fault, i didn't see the dogs. but still. i felt and i still feel it is my fault. what if we went the other way? what if we went out later? or sooner? it hurts so much to know she could be here if i did something otherwise. that she could left this world at peace, in her sleep or something. not in pain, with fear, with the feeling that her buddy - me - left her alone. i just miss her so much and i wish she could be here. just for a while. so i could hug her and kiss her and stroke her and see her happy smile. her little dance when i came home from work. i feel so sorry. and i can't believe it's been already a year without you. i just hope i gave you the best and happiest life with the best memories. you didn't deserve to leave this ugly world like this. you'll be forever loved and forever missed. wait for me over the rainbow, my dearest❤️‍🩹

millie | ⧗✪

Open In TikTok:

Region: CZ

Monday 31 July 2023 18:01:06 GMT