ً :
I know you'll never read this, and maybe it's better that way. You never knew I loved you. How could you? I never had the courage to say it — not with how I look, not with this mind of mine that keeps tearing me apart.
You were light. Warm, effortless light. And me… I was always in the shadows, just watching, always a little too far away. I told myself I didn’t deserve to speak, to be seen, to be loved.
You didn’t love me — and I don’t blame you. I wouldn’t either. I'm broken in ways no one can see, and some that everyone can. I carry voices in my head louder than my own, and I never could figure out how to be enough, or even just… be.
But I loved you quietly. In the spaces between your laughs. In the way you moved like the world was still worth something. I loved you when you looked sad and didn’t know someone noticed.
It hurts knowing you’ll move on, untouched by any of this. And I’ll stay here — a ghost with a heartbeat, loving someone who never even knew I existed in that way.
But it was real for me. And maybe, in some strange way, that’s all I have left.
2025-05-29 12:00:54