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I hate…. I HATE MYSELF, ALL I DO IS TALK A BIG GAME AND MAKE MYSELF SOUND LIKE A BIG SHOT, WHEN I CAN’T DO ANYTHING, I NEVER DO ANYTHING AND I COMPLAIN WITH THE BEST OF THEM LIKE IT’S MY JOB OR SOMETHING WHO THE HELL DO I THINK I AM..? im a fraud… IT’S AMAZING THAT I CAN LIVE LIKE THIS NOT FEEL ASHAMED, YOU KNOW IM RIGHT, im.. an empty shell, there’s nothing inside at all..!, all i know there isn’t.. guess that’s how it is.. anybody could see that, before i came to this place before i got in this situation that led me to all of you, do you any idea what i did with MY LIFE..?i did nothing.. that’s what i’ve never done a single thing worth mentioning.. I hate myself. Every day, I hate the person I’ve become. I’m the worst kind of failure—the one who promises to protect people but ends up dragging them into darkness instead. I see their faces, trusting me, believing in me… and all I can do is watch as I let them down, again and again. How can I be worth anything when all I do is cause pain? When every step I take just seems to bring more suffering? I’m useless. I’m worthless. The weight of my mistakes crushes me, and I don’t know how to carry on anymore. Sometimes, I wonder if it would be better if I just disappeared, if the world was free of someone like me. But even then, I’m scared—scared to lose the few people I care about. So I’m stuck, hating myself, but unable to let go. Trapped in this endless cycle of pain and regret.
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