choowee :
it's always me. why is it always me? always me getting pointed at for the wrong things i did, but never remembered for the good i gave. always me being the bad one in the story, when all i ever did was love you the best way i knew how. you keep bringing up what i did wrong, but you never talk about what you did that hurt me too. like it doesn’t matter. like your pain is louder, and mine doesn’t count. like hurting more means winning. but this was never a game for me. i never wanted to win over you, i just wanted us to win together. but now all i see is how easy it was for you to turn the story against me. how easy it was for you to forget the nights i stayed, the times i fought for us, the times i chose you again and again. and now i’m the villain, right? but tell me, did you forget how many times you made me feel small? how many times you walked away when all i needed was for you to stay? how many times i felt like an option while you made someone else feel special? it hurts. because i tried. i gave everything. and in return, i’m the one who ends up looking like the one who never cared. but i did. maybe too much. i’m tired of it always being me. tired of being misunderstood. tired of being blamed for everything falling apart, when i was the one trying to hold it all together with bare hands. so no, i’m not gonna fight for someone who keeps choosing to paint me in the worst light. i’m done letting myself look like the only one who failed. because the truth is, we both did. but at least i know my love was real, even if it wasn’t enough.
2025-07-28 15:39:32