@hailymj22: When i was a child i didnt know how lucky i was to have both of my parents in my life. I didnt know that i was gonna lose my dad to a asthma attack. I didnt know that i was gonna lose my mother to drugs. I was just a child but as an adult i now wish i spent more of my childhood spending time with my dad. Its almost fathers day and this one is hitting me like a brick. Fathers day has always been really rough for me but this year im really struggling. Ive been struggling with how i feel about myself. Am i doing good by you. I never graduated or got my GED. I didnt go to college. I donr know what i want to do as a career. I hate my body and the way i look and i just want to talk to you about it. I dont see bubba. I dont talk to family. I don’t communicate my feelings. I dont have my license. I dont know if i will have children. I want to but idk if i can. (We will be trying.) I don’t know what im doing. Also I wanna get married but i dont have my dad to walk me down the aisle. I wanna celebrate fathers day but i feel guilty in a way that i shouldn’t because i dont have my father. I want to talk to my dad about adult things in general but i dont have him. My father was my rock. I have my days where i really struggle wondering why god would take him away from me as a child. I wonder why my mom doesnt want me over drugs. I wonder how my life could be any different if he didnt just pass away, just what if he was alive. What if i couldve said bye in a proper way. As a child i didnt know any better. I saw everyone around me crying but i wasnt old enough to understand. Im old enough now to where i feel guilty about not hugging you or not given you the goodbye you deserved. I will give my son your middle or first name. I hope you are proud of me up there. i miss you. #greif #losingaparentyoung #losingmydad

haily j. 🍃👩🏼‍❤️‍💋‍👩🏽

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