mar :
“you pretended to care about me for all this time but now that i’m bleeding on my knees, you look at me hoping it will end soon; my teeth are shaking and you’re holding me as i die, just to be sure this is real. it hurts ‘cause i can feel your heart beating faster and faster while mine is slowly stopping, it hurts perceiving myself turning into a phantom and you look even more beautiful in the light of my death. hope you’re proud of yourself, you killed the only woman who has ever loved you, you did it, you wanted it, you dreamed it, you loved doing it more than you ever loved me - i beg you leave me lying here, let me go, i was killed by your hands and i don’t want to die in your arms, i don’t want you to be the last thing i feel, the first thing i feel after a long time. oh and please, please stop crying, i hate the sound of it, i hate the warmth of your tears on my cold body; dishonest tears, coward tears cause after all this is exactly how you wanted me to be: silent, still, weak, dead”
2025-07-01 22:02:39