Haha :
I am not worthy, in this world, for pats, cuddles, any kind of love, nor encouragement, recognition, friends, having a stress free life, or being told that I did my best, maybe that I did what I can too.
For such sweet words or gestures are for those who truly live. I do not live. I am rotting away in my room. And I cannot even take care of my own hygiene. I dont think I am depressed. I am wasting my life away.
I dont need this encouragement, but now that I have received it (for the first time ever in my entire life, I have heard, albeit thru a video aka this one, that I was told I did well enough in general and that I pushed through), .... I get it.
I get why people are overly attached to this kind of affection. But to depend on it..its a sign of weakness.
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