SAM WINCHESTER || GUILT music: @Alex Warren — Eternity (I am in love with this song, it is beautiful in every way possible) NOT!!!!! A SHIP!!!! JUST BROTHERHOOD!!!! (for God's sake) Dean never saw it, but all my attempts to sacrifice myself were driven by one thing: the fear of failing again, the desire to make things right. The guilt was my partner, walking beside me. When I couldn't save Jess, my mom was taken because of me, I never got to tell my dad how much I really loved him despite everything. How Dean sold his soul to bring me back to life. I sacrificed myself, survived the Cage, went through Hell, said "yes" to Lucifer, and followed Ruby, all in an attempt to prove to him: "I can do it. I can do it right. I can become the same person I've looked up to my entire childhood." But every step I took led me closer to the abyss. Jumping into the Cage left him without a brother, to deal with the consequences of what my soulless shell had done all on his own. My attempt to save him from the Mark of Cain cost his trust and Charlie, the little sister he never wanted. But I always knew that deep down, Dean forgave every mistake I made. Yet, the guilt remained. But that day in the church... the words tore out of me, a truth I couldn't bury anymore: "You wanna know what I confessed in there? What my greatest sin was?" It hurt me to admit that my own brother would choose anyone but me, all because of my failures. "How many times I let you down." But I was wrong. The blood that bound us was always stronger than any danger or problem that the world had to offer. I was willing to sacrifice myself to save the world, and Dean was willing to sacrifice the world to save me. hashatags: #supernatural #supernaturaledit #spn #spnedit #samwinchester #samwinchesteredit #jaredpadalecki #jaredpadaleckiedit #deanwinchester #deanwinchesteredit #jensenackles #jensenrossacklesedit #alexwarren #eternity #viral #fyp #foryou #fy #foryoupage - @spicycold_soba