i blame myself for everything. i was the one who built expectations out of small moments, out of every conversation, every glance, every little gesture that probably meant nothing to you. i was the one who misinterpreted things, who held onto the idea that maybe, just maybe, i had a place in your heart too .. but in the end, i realized that it was all just in my head. i was the one who created a world where we belonged together and now i am the one who has to tear it down because that world never existed anywhere except in my imagination. maybe i was foolish. maybe i was too naive to think that just because i loved you with all my heart, you would eventually feel the same way. but love has never been that simple. i understand now that love is not about who feels the strongest or who holds on the longest. love is not a competition where the more effort i put in, the higher my chances of winning your heart. no, love doesn't work that way. im hurt by something i created myself. i am not hurting because of you, nor because of anything you did, but because of the unrealistic hopes i held onto for too long. i let myself believe in a possibility that was never there. i convinced myself that maybe, if i stayed long enough, if i loved hard enough, if i proved myself worthy enough, you would eventually look at me the way i looked at you. but the truth is, love doesn't come from effortalone. love is a choice, a feeling that cannot be manufactured no matter how much someone wishes for it. but don't worry, i will never blame you. i will never ask you for an explanation or a reason why you couldn't love me back. i won't force my feelings on you because i know that love, when forced, is not real love at all. i only want you to know that i love you and i will continue to love you, even if you never know. i will keep loving you in silence. i will still whisper your name in my prayers even if you never do the same for me. i will continue to cherish the moments we shared, even if for you, they were nothing more than passing memories. and i will wait. not for you to change your mind, not for you to suddenly see me in a different light.. but for the day when i can fully accept this reality. i will wait for the day when i can see you happy with someone else and feel nothing but peace. i know this won't be easy. i know there will be nights when i get lost in old memories, when i wonder if i ever crossed your mind, even for a second. there will be days when i feel foolish for still thinking of you, while you have probably long forgotten about my feelings. but that's okay. i am not in a hurry. i will go through this process at my own pace. i will learn how to love you without hurting myself. i will learn to accept this reality without feeling like i have lost something that was never mine to begin with. because in the end, you were never really mine and i never truly had you to lose. i have finally learned this truth, loving someone does not always mean having to be with them some love is meant to be felt in silence, kept safely in the heart and let go with sincerity, maybe i was never meant to stand beside you in this life. maybe you will never realise how deeply i cared but that's okay. i am grateful to have loved you - @user2510204733927