@spammmm4bria: i no longer answer my phone. i watch your name ring over and over, and i just stare at it. i kept the peace for too many years. i let you destroy me for yearssss. and sometimes i still feel like i am suffocating, like i have nowhere to turn, and nobody could ever really love me. you made me feel terrible and worthless, and i was just someone who was trying to survive… i pray you heal from all the things you won’t admit to, from all things you won’t get help for, i pray everyday for you.