@lordjuliusofappalachia: Being online, social media. it's valuable to me, but it's also very lonely. I want people around who aren't afraid to play fight and be physical and give hugs. My ex was so stand offish that I never want to be around anyone who reminds me of them again. my biggest love language is hugs, touch, and voice. Someone being fully present with me. I didn't have that at all in my last relationship. She gave me the things that were convenient for her but never what I needed and begged for. I'm never begging for scraps of love again.