@agwithkatiemitrowski: When I see these posts and ask my ChatGPT to describe things such as this, I realize that I should probably be seeing a therapist to resolve some internal problems that have accrued over the first 30 years of my life. Trauma is a real thing. This definitely hit the nail on the head and I think this is something that most Ag Teachers trying their hardest to make their program successful can relate to. You don't think about the day-to-day or how you will traverse these things, you just do. "No" is not an option and at the end of the day, you feel like a failure if you place your own needs in front of your students'. The teacher guilt is so real. Acceptance is the first step. You are not alone!