Recently I've been feeling this intense loneliness into not being included in plans that friends have made, despite my efforts of asking to be included.
So, last Thursday after my overnight shift I drove myself to IHOP at like 7 in the morning. I cried in the car because I felt so pathetic in not having anyone to do anything with. But, after my cry I went in and had a damn good breakfast.
Afterwards, I took myself out to see Superman—a movie I was looking forward to for years. I was supposed to go with friends but schedules didn't align and they went without me and couldn't "find the time" to reschedule. So, I cried in the car again at 9:15 and went in and bought myself a ticket.
The theater was completely empty, it was odd only seeing one person working and no one in the seats, but it was peaceful in a way. I got to see a damn good movie in a theater all to myself. And it's because I gave myself permission to feel those hard feelings and then choose to go and do what I wanted to do anyway.
It's hard being lonely, but it's worse to deprive yourself of what brings you joy because of it. Thank you for this video, Zurkie, I look forward to what life has in store to you and I 🙂↕️🤞
2025-07-22 09:25:49
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Trey :
When I was younger, I thought I was supposed to feel happy all the time. And when I wasn’t I thought something was wrong with me, and I got in a pretty bad mental state. Realizing I had permission to feel “bad” helped me a lot. Amazing vid as always Zurkie, thanks👍❤️
2025-07-28 18:06:51
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Rafael blood strike :
My frontal lobe developed & suddenly the only thing that matters was finding peace✨. Eveyone gotta read a book Healing Isn't Pretty by Mira Hartson
2025-07-23 02:15:36
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Braden🌴 :
Zurkie you always manage to come onto my FYP when I need it. When things were good I never see you, when they aren’t so good I see you. Much love!
2025-07-23 00:40:10
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bzbsk79 :
This is so real, but sometimes I think I cling to my suffering to have a better story to tell🤔💔
2025-07-26 09:55:03
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Raptersway :
hey can I tell you something I need help understanding about myself it's unrelated to this topic your talking about
2025-07-25 01:56:41
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Marcela Peña :
Trust me girl been there done that, i know that feeling of betraying yourself over and over. Reading heals and i strongly suggest everyone to read Healing Isn't Pretty by Mira Hartson
2025-07-23 02:15:37
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ju._.ju :
Okay this is totally random but is that Schonbrunn palace in the back 😭
2025-07-25 22:07:01
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ThatMaxwell :
Hey Zurkie I have been watching a long time now and never skip your videos despite not really feeling like I need guidance as I have already been on a similar journey of self fulfillment for some time now and still it is super refreshing and nice to get a view from your perspective which has most certainly at times helped me shape my path going forward. I just wanted to say thank you and keep it up as you are genuinely a very inspiring person!
2025-07-22 10:10:30
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shit_magnet101 :
But what if the thing that brings you joy is also holding you back
2025-07-23 19:11:02
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antoine_dumont :
You are so blessed man, love ♥️
2025-07-25 17:56:18
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Jordan yaklin :
You’re so awesome dude
2025-07-23 18:08:47
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suitepete :
Is bro at the grassy knoll?? 😳😳
2025-07-23 04:38:50
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Cesarrr :
Like bro is reading my mind
2025-07-22 14:44:44
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Smoked.Greens :
I told my mom I had depression in middle school and got yelled at bc she thought I was using it as an excuse. Never opened up to them again.
2025-07-24 16:15:10
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zerogravity615 :
Love this man
2025-07-21 20:39:25
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亗𝙺𝙴𝚅𝙸𝙽ᶜᴿᴬᶻᵞ :
POV: You just finished reading Healing Isn't pretty by Mira Hartson and you've never felt more powerful💅
2025-07-23 02:15:36
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Francisco Gutiérrez :
Trust me girl been there done that, i know that feeling of betraying yourself over and over. Reading heals and i strongly suggest everyone to read Healing Isn't Pretty by Mira Hartson
2025-07-23 02:15:36
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Tim :
Bro no way you are in vienna rn and im on vacation 😭😭
2025-07-21 21:00:02
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alexandra_2010 :
Pleaseeee please please read book called Healing Isn't Pretty by Mira Hartson it's an amazing book. You won't regret it.
2025-07-23 02:15:37
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halie :
OMG YOU’RE IN VIENNA?????
2025-07-28 20:40:59
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bataktoba :
I decided to give ago at parkour in my local town im starting a class tomorrow
2025-07-21 22:54:00
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zoe! :
Can you put these on Spotify??
2025-07-23 15:06:43
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breadstickbandit :
I unfortunately don’t have parents that understand. They just blame
2025-07-23 19:25:31
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jeffbuckleybootleg :
thabkss mannn its really soothing and helps me listen clearly without being bored
2025-07-26 09:45:38
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