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Mikalya07 :

i'm so scared I will be alone forever I don't like being alone. I don't know how to make new friends especially with a guy. i always have to contact my partner first call, texts etc if i dont we dont talk.my so called friends dont care about me if i dont text or call them first we dont speak it can take hours for them to reply sometimes it takes days to reply. they always bail to hangout it always get pushed back or cancelled.I'm scared I will get hurt again I don't know if I go on dating apps. everyone i have asked know no single guys.i have no confidence to go up to a guy i think who is cute in a store and give my number. My ex was such a advoident he caused me to overthinking and have insecurities. I'm got a anxious attachment because of him and past stuff. I'm a introvert I am trying find new hobbies but don't know how to. I need to learn to listen to my gut. I'm trying to love myslef but I don't know how to any advice I'm scared I will never find my person and I don't know how to. and I don't know if I should listen to my gut. I'm always the one going up to people and starting a conversation or keeping it going it's so annoying why can't someone come up to me for once if I don't go up to people we don't talk it's same with friends to. how am I ment to find a guy a new relationship if I am the one going up to them. starting a conversation and keeping it going it's so annoying they say a answer and end of conversation no guy asks me questions. I'm scared my dream of having kids and marriage Is over im scared I will be single forever. mabye im the problem. I go back and thing did I do anything wrong. people see how I act or react but never ask why is she acting like this its always my fault people never look at them selves and ask what have i done for her to act like this. people just break promises. My family is so toxic but I can't leave they dont understand me or what I go through they just think I hold grudges when I dont i just in pain. I dont want to come across as attention seeking, playing the victim card, toxtic or manipulative because im not.