tamarindoisbetter :
Me, even as the youngest, just for being a girl. I acted like a child, looked feminine and I only liked feminine things but acted like my dad instead. So I would always get into trouble for taking after my family themselves , being like them and just not taking it. Since I wouldn’t give in at all, I didn’t understand any of it, I was just a child, I was confused. I didn’t even know what they wanted or how to do any of it and often straight up forgot about it, if not ignored it and went to my room to avoid it because I was so anxious. I always got into trouble and had to walk on eggshells. It only made me worse, and I would react, I would cry without breathing, get upset, self isolate, not want to talk, not want to be around them or something. I was getting bullied at the same time at school and struggling academically, yet never supported. Instead it was all ignored by not just my parents but my teachers too, and I was called dramatic, told to get over it or that it didn’t exist. My mom also focused more on my brother for having autism even though she never got him help and would complain of me having the same traits & issues he had but never able to accept I could have something too , instead just ignored me , left me to parent myself & said I was being defiant for it. I only naturally reacted, and it made me moody , skittish, scared, upset, on edge and never happy , I didn’t know how to control my emotions, cope or self regulate either , so it only made me worse and i just got punished for reacting in any way that wasn’t just being happy and taking it.
2025-07-27 18:41:58