I don’t have a name ✹ :
Ohhh the song ….. I feel everything until I get overwhelmed and cry, but what choice else do I have ?!? A life soo beautiful that what I thought to be the worst time of my life was actually the best, and with pain I felt alive, I felt something, I can’t believe that I isolated myself for 5 month, I swear to you I watched the seasons change, I couldn’t believe it when I saw the tree leaves drop, snowfall, and trees sprouting with green, and the moon and the sun rising, all of this just from me laying on the hard floor and watching from the window as I lay down, it was truly hell, and I’ve water 5 month of my teens doing nothing but suffer, that is perhaps the biggest sin of my life, that I did nothing with the most Precious years of my life, I slowly watch them end, and I can only watch while they disappear, as if my eyelids have been clipped by a nail clipper, and I am forced to watch, and it is only the suffering of watching my beautiful 6,4 body decay and grow into adulthood, dragging me from my teens just like how a child is dragged out of his bed in the morning, and forced to leave his warm bed, ihh dear reader, I hate how I can’t pain this pain with words, I hate how we only like things when they are over,
2025-07-30 02:35:38