bear :
I used to yearn for that one boy I truly loved with all my heart, my attention is all over him, I can't get enough of him, he was my first and greatest love. Now, my life turns upside down, making me stressed about academics. And I messed up; I treated him badly, I told him that I wanted to separate ways, yet he still supports me, quietly. Of course, I wanted him back but I already made my decision. I thought that it was the best for both of us, yes maybe. I was hurt when I realized when I was being a pain for him, I treated him badly so bad even when he just wanted to cheer me up, acting dry while he cheered me up and being affectionate to make me feel better. I'm so lucky to have you, yet I made you lose your spark twice. If you ever see this, even though I'm sure you won't, I hope you'll achieve your dreams in life, have a good life and forget about me. We still walk together unsure of which path to go, yet we're not holding each other anymore which we thought we'll grow from. We won't grow old together, we can't fulfil that wish we wanted to give animals a warm shelter, we can't watch the sunset while holding each other, I don't know maybe if we'll be able to fulfill those wishes, but we both know that it's not us anymore. We're still young, there's a future ahead of us. Don't lose hope, I'll be here loving you quietly, but I can't heal you again anymore, you already locked your heart and I can't help. You're a very kind and sweet man, my Juju. I hope the world is kind to you as well. I promise I won't call, but I'll answer if it was you.
2025-09-22 12:34:50