@slayit.mama: I used to think I cleaned while the kids were home because I was just trying to be productive. But I’ve started to realize—it’s something deeper. It’s not that I’m zoning out. I’m zoning in on tasks to avoid melting down. The noise, the toys, the constant motion… the mess feels louder when the chaos is louder. And my brain goes: “Fix it. Now.” Sometimes, it’s not even about being clean. It’s about control when everything else feels overstimulating. It’s survival mode disguised as a chore list. Living with ADHD or OCD tendencies means my nervous system treats a messy room like a five-alarm fire. I’m not cleaning because it relaxes me. I’m cleaning because my brain thinks it’s an emergency. I wish I ended the day feeling proud or peaceful. But sometimes I just feel numb. Or wide awake at 3am because I can’t turn it off. This isn’t a confession or a cry for help. It’s just me learning to see the why behind my patterns—and trying to offer myself some compassion instead of shame for it. If you’ve ever felt this too, you’re not alone. And you’re not broken. #MomTok #OverstimulatedMom #ADHDAwareness #OCDawareness #NeurodivergentMoms
