jfreed2455 :
I’ve been angry — not just at you, but at everything that’s happened. At life for piling so much on at once. At myself for not handling things better. Losing Mom, the stress of legal issues, the arguments we had — it all felt overwhelming, and I felt like I was drowning while trying to keep it all together. I know that pressure affected how I showed up in our relationship, and I’m sorry for that. It hurts to know you’ve found someone else. I won’t pretend it doesn’t. It feels like a part of me is still catching up to that reality — that the person I thought I’d spend my life with is now walking beside someone new. I’ve experienced every emotion: sadness, anger, disbelief, even moments of numbness. But underneath it all, there’s just grief — grief for what we lost and for what I hoped we’d still have. I’ve tried to understand why things happened the way they did, and maybe I’ll never have all the answers. What I do know is that I loved you deeply, and that love was real. Maybe it wasn’t enough to save us at the time, but it still meant something — it still matters to me. Would you like me to finish the letter with the final section of release and peace, where you start to let go and find closure (without erasing the love)? That part can help you feel more settled after all this emotional weight. I don’t know what the future holds for either of us, and I’m learning to accept that. What I do know is that I’m trying to grow from all of this — to become someone stronger, calmer, and more at peace with life, no matter what it gives or takes away. I forgive both of us for the things we couldn’t control, and for the things we didn’t handle perfectly. I forgive myself for not being the man I wanted to be when everything fell apart, and I forgive you for doing what you needed to do to find your own peace. You’ll always be an important part of my life — not because of how it ended, but because of everything we shared before that. I’ll always carry gratitude for the laughter, the closeness, and the memories that shaped me. Even through the pain, I still wish you nothing but happiness and healing in whatever path you’re on now. As for me, I’m taking oneday at a time. 🙏🏻🥰
2025-10-28 04:18:43