leb :
she decided to end it tho, my mistake was I drained her, I always question myself if hindi ba enough efforts ko for her not to appreciate it and sometimes see it as a bare minimum, we've been together for three years and what she stands for are those standards of other women here in tiktok about relationships such as "if he wanted to he would" "if you think you're asking for too much wait till you meet someone who does it naturally" "a real man will never let you sleep with a heavy heart". I mean, those are very ideal, really, but for those three years I did everything, gave it my all, but all those aren't still not enough. In those three years I just learned how to distance myself whenever we're having a fight na I know hindi mafi-fix while mainit pa ulo nya or both of us, for me mas okay kasi pag usapan ang isang problema kapang di na kayo puno ng emosyon especially galit, mas makakapag decide and salita ng tama, but it turned out that it was draining for her. I decided to do that because I used to explain my side everytime mag aaway kami and I always call out the things na para sakin is hindi tama na ginawa nya, but for her I was invalidating her, I couldn't tell her all of this because I don't know ano nanaman iisipin o nararamdaman nya pag sinabi ko to, na para bang para sa kanya hindi ko nakikita yung point nya just because I call out the things na para sakin ay mali, ang hirap, draining din but I still want to fight for her, nakikita ko na yung future na kasama sya eh, hindi yung na vi-vision out mo lang yung moments na masaya kayo but also the hard times and kung pano namin ma lalagpasan yon ng magkasama, yun na yon eh alam ko na malapit na eh, na sya na talaga gusto ko makasama thru ups and downs eh, Idk if anyone would bother to read this but I'll just leave this here hoping for her to read it and think about it and if you ever find this, mi amor, te amo
2025-09-30 12:11:47