bruhdi :
I miss her so much. A year has passed and i can't get over it, im still waiting. Almost 3 years of relationship when i was a teenager, even tho she said "all i wan't to have i want to have it with you" and a lot of things like that, and we used to talk about the relationship, the future of it, how happy we were gonna be, talking the relationship seriously. And all of the sudden, one day she didn't even wanted to tell me why, so she just broke up with me, we didn't talked since then, i don't even know why she left me since then, but she was with another guy in like 4 months or less after breakup, that hurt me so much that even to this day i can't recover from that, i just gambled and lost, i really wanted only her, and sadly probably this is something common. I've had a bit of a glow up, confidence, made money, kept being social, trying to always stay happy with people, doing things good, giving good vibes, asking friends for help, seeking god, being a better person, but i just don't know what to do no more, i try my best but i can't feel the same, i can't feel happy for real.
Im just stressed, im tired of friends telling me things like: "seek god" or "get over it". Nah, its not magical, i wish it was. I don't want to hide, but i always hide everything because of that, i don't want solutions that works for you, i need a solution for me, a real hug, a real word coming from the heart, a feeling that makes me feel like that first day, or someone who makes me feel like home. I have good friends, but i don't have a friend that's in the same situation as me or neither makes me feel comfortable talking about this.
I just hope yall are having a great day/night or whatever the time it is, i just needed to say this, i cannot even sleep from thinking about this. Just be a good person, be human, make mistakes, its alright, but learn from them to be a even better and ethical person.
That's all i have to say, sadly, this is something frecuent, something that i shouldn't, but i normalized it. Just needed to talk, people say that we write because we wan't someone to read us so...
im also a bit nervous ab this, i never expose myself like this on social media.
2025-10-23 07:42:16