@stchavezmusic: I used to be one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. It was traumatic. Five years ago I made a short film about it; this year I made a song to work through my feelings about God. Last week I layered parts of each on top of each other, and was surprised at how well they synced up. You can check out the full version of each on YouTube if you want. #exjw #god
bro you gotta put your linktree or youtube in your bio it took me digging through your insta to find it so i could save it to my playlists
2025-10-28 13:29:18
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Lightning107 :
You really capture the crushing weight of feeling alone in a crowded room full of people that believe what you believe but somehow feel like they believe it better than you. Growing up Christian always felt like I was somehow somewhere I didn’t belong even if everyone welcomed me. And it wasn’t from a lack of trying. I have journal entries of me saying stuff like ‘I want to want to be better’ and struggling with mental health but thinking that was because I wasn’t relying on god enough.
2025-10-25 18:15:38
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Sam :
I’m always kind when kid Jehovah Witnesses come to my door. The church’s sends them out knowing people will be unkind and it will drive them to feeling like only church is safe. Hear what they have to say, say thank you, be kind.
2025-10-28 13:35:37
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Natan Grajales :
I also grew up JW, good job getting out and you’re very talented. Thank you for making this
2025-10-28 11:29:20
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savannah :
beautiful animation but whyd you make the screen all blurry halfway through
2025-10-25 17:09:20
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k :
grew up jw too. always wondered god was when i was being abused. when my abuser died, my relatives apologized for not helping. they’re still jw
2025-10-25 18:29:08
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emily |-/ :
this is absolutely PHENOMENAL. although i grew up catholic this made me tear up a little because it’s all too familiar. i hope this blows up because you deserve it
2025-10-25 16:26:20
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b2.bingo :
what’s the name of this song??? love it!!!
2025-10-27 15:29:49
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🔸 :
Ts tuff as hell
2025-10-25 16:46:54
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erintrovert⁷ :
the shot of the overwhelming rush of people coming at you, expecting something from you, constantly scrutinizing, hit me like a truck as a PK. thank you for making this
2025-10-25 22:47:15
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dv :
the red chairs, the beige room, the grey bible—i think no matter how long i run, in a way, they’re right, and god will always be with me, and i won’t forget how much i hate that
2025-10-26 18:00:45
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Ash :
so many terrible memories growing up jw. The elders used to put me in a separate room after the meeting ended (with a window so everyone could see) to chastise me for whatever I wasn’t doing right. I used to sob while sitting there.
2025-10-26 13:16:23
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Chrysalis_candy :
I grew up Mormon and this really hits. Always questioning why I felt wrong and different and less of a believer than those around me. An empty lonely feeling in a room of full pews.
2025-10-26 02:21:00
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PastelMystical :
The style is sooo cool and the animation is so smooth wow. As an exmormon this really hit me. I always thought everyone was pretending to believe and I felt so wrong and alone in those pews.
2025-10-26 05:02:05
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Foxlore2424 :
I refuse to be the only like on this, this is some of the best religious trauma vent media I've ever seen, and Im not letting it go unnoticed
2025-10-25 16:21:32
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Do not refer to me :
congregation drop! (I was the one on the outside)
2025-10-25 18:00:17
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DigglesGiggles :
the absolute strength it must've taken to get to a point where you can use a song that uses his name in vain. really proud you made it out man. being a jw is such a hard thing to escape from what i've seen.
2025-10-26 20:29:31
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Beck :
My ex was ex-Mormon, and the religious trauma he experienced was so tragic. I admire anyone who goes through this, it’s not easy
2025-10-28 05:50:53
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kiraan :
as someone who is still in it and will tell his mother in a few hours, this actually hits so much harder.
2025-10-26 01:27:08
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pookaWOODS :
Firstly, this is BEAUTIFUL. I can see the emotion you put into this. Secondly, if you haven't seen it yet, you should check out the YouTube channel @cultstoconsciousness She used to be Mormon and interviews people from other high demand religions.
2025-10-27 00:15:35
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Adam 🕷️ :
Was raised in it too, it was so isolating to be a child being pulled out of class during birthdays because “mom and god says its a sin”. To sit in a hallway waiting while everyone else eats cupcakes. So much of that religion has effected me. Im glad I was able to get out in my teens.
2025-10-28 00:54:13
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bunky :
omg. My whole family is Jehovah’s Witness nd I used to go to meetings, this is a perfect representation. I luv this
2025-10-28 00:10:08
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peepis.mcweepis :
i was raised a witness, ages 5-22. i lost my grandpa in july this year. he and my grandma and my parents are still witnesses. i went to his memorial at a kingdom hall, first time ive been in over 8 years. they spoke of him for maybe 6-8 minutes and the rest was just about their doctrine. i just wanted to remember my grandpa :(
2025-10-27 18:32:03
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hello :
thank you for this—it makes me feel less alone. I love the vibe and style. I used to be a devout mormon, and now I'm agnostic and so confused and numb. I've been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and OCD (religious/moral/existential), but idk, they all just seem like hollow labels bc I just feel like I'm having a fitting response to the human condition and the uncertainty of life. idk how to live with it, but maybe one day I'll find a way to feel okay. it's weird feeling so betrayed or confused by someone you're not sure even exists...bc it used to feel so real to me. it's a painful and strange thing to mourn. anyways, thanks again for this. hope you're doing okay!❤
2025-10-27 08:36:58
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🌺Koko🌺 :
from someone who was raised JW, closeted and afraid. thank you for this. Ive never seen anyone capture this feeling so well.
2025-10-25 22:30:37
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