kanna :
I remember tearing up while praying sa mass, begging for my sins to be forgiven and saying sorry to God with all my being. It also happens that by coincidence, the homily of the Father was about encouraging others to pray and beg for God's mercy, to be saved from our suffering. In my prayers, I tell Him to listen to what my soul has to say. I just want to have a peaceful mind, even if it's just for a day. A moment of rest for my restless mental state. I told Him that I am not one of His strongest soldiers, I am on the brink of giving up. If what I am going through is His punishment or challenge for me, I ask of Him to tell me a reason why, I don't doubt His judgement but I am confused about His goal for me, its purpose. The reason why.
In my prayers, I always pray that He doesn't let another soul go through the same obstacle as me or everyone going through the same challenges as me to have His guidance and love through others.
But, even with all that said, prayers don't get fulfilled the same day. It takes time, so I also pray that if I lose, I hope my soul finds peace and my loved ones to not worry about me.
2025-11-04 04:27:44