Katie_Anne191 :
I watched someone jump I front of a train back in 2023. It was my first day of college (1 year access course) and it was in my way home, she was crying at the station from what I was told and walking to and away from the end of the platform before she saw the train and just jumped. While this was happening I had to top up my Oyster card for the train and only turned the corner right as she jumped. I hated myself. Because if I didn’t need to top it up, I would have been standing right next to her to take that very train she jumped in front of. I would have seen her crying and I know the person that I am, I would have asked her if she’s okay. That’s probably all she needed was for someone to ask if she was okay. Genuinely I went to therapy because I just couldn’t get over how I wish I could go back in time and save her. It was more personal too because after she died I spoke with her family because they wanted details and I ended up learning a lot about her, she was only 16, she had also just started her college course. She was so pretty, she had a tiktok and all her videos she’s dancing with her friends. They let off balloons for her at the station around a week after it happened, her little cousin crying, her mother absolutely hysterical, the grandmother trying to comfort her. Every year on or around the anniversary of her death or her birthday I will leave flowers and a card at the station and sit there for a while. I hope she’s in a better place. You’re not alone, there’s so many details I still remember and if you really are struggling with it all please go to therapy I beg of you, it does help a little bit. My therapist made me realise that the chain of events leading to her death, in MY part, were inevitable, and there’s nothing I could have done. I just wish that others who were at the station had swallowed their pride and comforted her and asked if she was okay :( could have been a different outcome that way. Rest in peace J 🕊️
2025-11-13 10:25:51