Erin Rackham, PhD
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Sunday 17 March 2024 16:40:34 GMT
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💜Jessie💜 :
How do you reconcile that our mothers didn’t break like we did? I’m still working on radically accepting whatever that may mean.
2024-03-17 17:04:30
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Dev :
I love and miss you so much ❤️💕
2024-06-03 21:36:10
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Via🍉♾️🧡 :
yes! being adopted into an Evangelical Christian, neurotypical home felt like death in countless ways that I couldn't understand until I realized auADHD/PDA and CPTSD. The lack of safety broke me
2024-03-18 00:09:10
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g :
I've only been out of the Mormon cult for 5 years. I just saw this today and started crying. I feel so seen but also feel that I have so much to learn about myself and my brain. you give me hope.
2024-03-21 15:40:54
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shelanmollay :
Very well said. I always knew I would never go to BYU. I couldn’t. Thank you for making it through and sharing 💕
2024-03-17 17:07:55
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klara ricks | photographer :
Your voice matters so much - thank you for sharing your hurt! I feel seen 💕 which is more than the church ever did for me
2024-03-21 19:40:53
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Mac :
I'm a teacher who burned out soon after taking on a caretaking responsibility. they both took their toll, but at school I had to watch kids get hurt by the system and that wore on me
2024-03-17 17:03:15
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hotpoorbitch :
(1) I relate to this so much. I genuinely enjoy nurturing by nature but my guilt and shame for not enjoying being alive and struggling to model to my child how to live a joyful life is what makes me
2024-03-18 17:00:10
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Kindness :
I feel like I need to just drop in and sit with you and take a deep breath beside you. I can see you’re activated in this video, I hope today has been a little more manageable 💕
2024-03-18 21:40:07
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goblin squad :
generational healers 💜 it's hard out here
2024-03-17 16:55:02
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alexis 🦂 :
It’s so hard to be aware & do better about generational trauma. I don’t even have kids & it’s hard. I commend you & you’re doing great!
2024-03-17 22:59:26
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Amber Rice :
Thank you so much for articulating this. Same same same
2024-03-17 19:58:39
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Elly :
When i realized that i gave up my autonomy for a lie it broke my brain. Or rather the rubber bands that were holding my brain together broke. I could have just been whole. That would have been better
2024-03-17 20:38:12
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Kayla Jane :
And those of us that are breaking out of this “matrix” get labeled as the black sheeps, or crazy, etc…and have to fight through the cognitive dissonance day after day of what is happening in the 🟪
2024-03-17 18:17:09
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Stacey :
I had this realization a while back, now I am in existence dread about what happens to them if something happens to me because I’ve lost all support from family because of this!
2024-03-17 18:48:26
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Riley Heretic :
Ex catholic & CFBC here, but I relate. ♥️It answers so many questions I had growing up.
2024-03-17 23:52:11
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lynnypooh777 Lynette :
Being Mormon traumatized me...It took me years to piece it together too.
2024-03-17 19:53:55
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coyo_tea :
we've been seeing my 16 year old come alive after the years of school and church just boxed her up into a small package. homeschooling and no church has been so good
2024-03-17 19:20:56
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genx babe :
that programming runs deep, doesn't it? 🥺🥺🥺
2024-03-17 17:10:57
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Sage :
You just made me connect that BYU was the beginning of what broke me. I dropped out after a few years because I couldn't go back. Thank you for sharing.
2024-03-21 19:00:50
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Church Girls Gone Bad Podcast :
“It’s that I refuse to harm my kids.” Damn, Erin!
2024-03-20 00:45:19
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Shana :
So relatable. It’s like you read a portion of my journal at the time when my kids were young. So sorry you went through this too. 🥺💚
2024-03-19 17:29:07
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omnisyntra :
It’s pervasive in all our systems, you aren’t alone. I’m grateful for the work your doing, healing helps everyone, it’s truly a selfless gift to humanity.
2024-03-18 06:50:56
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Leeza the SLP 💜 :
We dehumanize people all the time 💔
2024-03-17 18:25:00
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wandamoore3978 :
great! so great!
2024-03-17 17:07:06
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princess.andthebear :
You said the key in there that most parents don’t consider: it’s not their fault. They can’t control their response. Most of our parents blamed us. That is a big difference already
2024-03-17 16:54:49
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Theylovekory :
I am a ex Mormon self diagnosed pda autistic new mom who has lots and heds and I just found your account and I’ve never ever met somebody more similar to me. Thank you 💙
2024-04-16 20:22:54
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oldsaramar10 :
I originally stopped going to liberal Protestant church because you couldn’t take my PDAer without losing a piece of your soul. It’s AMAZING you made it that far.
2024-03-24 13:52:33
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Megarino :
Im so grateful for you staying because you solved my 37 year old puzzle ❤️
2024-03-21 05:48:27
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LawyerLadyLogic :
This was almost exactly my experience 😭. I’m only here bc of my little kids. I left the church bc I refused to put my daughter into an organization that would grind down her soul like I meat grinder!
2024-03-19 19:31:03
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Rita :
Narcissistic Mormon mothers are literally insane and cruel. Narcisstic Mormon fathers are scary and unsafe.
2024-03-19 02:49:20
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Abbey Worlton :
Went to BYUI and it screwed me up.
2024-03-18 05:09:45
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Pursuit of Peace :
🫂 yeah, unlearning catholic school and feeling this
2024-03-18 02:12:29
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legocatlady 🏴☠️🏳️🌈 :
Yes!♥️I'm audhd and I could not handle being mormon either.
2024-03-17 18:41:39
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lil :
Your messages are so so important ❤️love to hear your thought processes
2024-03-17 16:52:42
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Rebecca Blevins :
I knew I couldn't do that to my kids (we all are neurodivergent, most audhd), but in a single moment of wanting the pain to stop, I almost did anyway. I got help & a few years later left the church.💗
2024-03-22 16:01:26
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LADYBOMBDOTCOM :
I think it is both cause motherhood is kill me
2024-03-21 23:47:06
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Jean Abrams495 :
oof! I never thought it was motherhood and i was born into a Baptist family and I'm just learning I'm neurodivergent, but I can identify with this hard. 🥺
2024-03-21 15:00:28
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DawnSwan83 :
Thank you! This just unlocked something inside me.
2024-03-20 15:18:46
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✨Wara ✨ :
So knowing this looks like powerful to me. Like you’ve come out of the other side of the tunnel. Do you feel more empowered? Are you in a place of peace to continue the journey?
2024-03-19 15:37:45
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❤️🔥Kylie Russell❤️🔥 :
As a fellow autistic w/pda exmo I relate to this sooo deeply
2024-03-18 02:37:25
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brittforst :
Thank you so much for sharing
2024-04-02 19:30:23
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😈DarkAngel😇 :
I connect with your experience so much. Destined to be traumatized needing automnomy. Literally broken before i could allow myself to peice it together. Didn’t only bc of what it world do to my kids.
2024-03-22 04:58:20
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✨Jennifer Crow✨ :
Leaving Mormonism saved my family too. My kids were traumatized by the church in so many ways. We’re healing but the trauma remains.
2024-03-21 13:47:49
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junyer24 :
The truly sad thing is that the church would rather have you at home making doughnuts for the boys instead of earning a phd and making a positive impact on the world.
2024-03-21 03:49:57
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Goddess.com :
100% this! I didn’t leave bc of church history, 2015 policy, treatment of LGBTQ or racism, etc (though they did help!)… Literally left because it made me feel gross, controlled, in bondage ♥️
2024-03-20 13:28:14
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Chaz :
Whenever I try to explain this, I get so much gaslighting and pushback. I can’t imagine how much harder it is for you.
2024-03-19 04:11:31
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exmo_movingon :
Becoming a mom in Mormonism is also everybody watching you struggle but thinking they won’t help cuz it’s for our own good. Zero support after week 1 of casseroles.
2024-03-18 14:55:09
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